Miscellaneous

What is abuse?

Abuse can be verbal,emotional, physical, sexual or mental. According to the domesticviolence.org website says: Many people who are being abused do not see themselves as victims. Also, abusers do not see themselves as being abusive. People often think of domestic violence as physical violence, such as hitting. However, domestic violence takes other forms, such as psychological, emotional, or sexual abuse.

This is true. You see, I was abused. I never thought of myself as a victim of abuse, nor a survivor of abuse. But the truth is, I am! I am that and so much more! My step-father sexually abused me from the time I was 7 til I was 11. He also mentally abused me by stating that SEX was the only way to be loved. That if I didn’t have sex with someone, that they couldn’t possibly love me. I was so brain-washed, the only thing I can describe it; but I now know it as “Love and Stockholm Syndrome”, that I thought he really loved me. He showed me all the time and he said it too, now and again. When I turned 11, he told me he didn’t love me anymore. What I didn’t know was that I had started my womanly monthlies and he didn’t want to get me pregnant! Then the other abuse started. The emotional, physical, mental abuse. I was threatened that if I told anyone, that I would not only lose my family, but that they would take my baby sister (who is 7 years younger than me) away from us all and I’d never see my family again!

I was constantly told I was stupid, good for nothing.. OH And my favorite is the statement my mother made when I was about 10 or so. She said: “I don’t care what you do, where you do it, just don’t get caught and don’t bring anything bad to my name.” WOW!

I’m gonna stop here and pick up another time.

I hope that this helps others realize that they aren’t alone. That there is help out there, if you want it, and that I’m here if you want to talk about it. I’m a good listener. Having gone through it as a child and later as a married woman, I KNOW! I UNDERSTAND! I CARE!

I LOVE YOU! YOU LOVE YOU, TOO!